How often have you cried out for help?
Maybe it was to God, Buddha, Allah, your minister, your boss, your spouse, a friend or family member…
What specifically did you ask help for?
What did they tell you?
Did you take their advice?
If not… why not?
For over 20 years I lived with an anxiety disorder that was crippling…
There was nothing I wanted more than to be free of the non-stop feelings of fear, stress, anxiety and worry… or so I told myself.
I used to read books, articles, ask advice, pray and reflect on my disorder and wonder why no one… including God would help me.
Was this a test?
Is this something I deserved for a past wrong?
Is this just normal for everyone?
Now looking back I believe maybe it was a test but it certainly did not have to go on as long as it did.
Although I know it wasn’t punishment for a past wrong it was something I brought on myself because of choices I made and lies I allowed myself to believe.
Thirdly, it is absolutely NOT normal to live everyday, all day feeling anxious, panic stricken and afraid.
But I want to go back to why no one… including God… would help me… or so I thought.
Looking back it is so abundantly clear there was help being offered me from every direction… I just chose to ignore it.
The steps I took to overcome fear and anxiety were steps I knew to take for years prior to actually doing them.
To be perfectly honest I can’t even say the answers were buried deep within me… because they weren’t… I just had every excuse in the book to not do what I knew to do…
I’ll get right on that… tomorrow
I’m too tired right now…
What if it doesn’t work?
What if I fail?
What if I look like an idiot?
I can’t do it…it’s too hard…
The world hates me… life is unfair…
Why won’t anybody help?
God why won’t you answer my prayers?
Near the top of the post I wrote:
“There was nothing I wanted more then to be free of the non-stop feelings of fear, stress, anxiety and worry… or so I told myself.”
But there was something I wanted more… it was to not have to change… it was to not have to choose differently… it was to not have to commit… it was to not allow anyone to know I needed help!
What do you want more than to be free of your fear, anxiety, panic attacks and worry?
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June 20, 2008 at 7:59 am |
I have just recently discovered that the terrible sensations I have been living with are really panic attacks. I get it, I really do. You call out to God and you feel like He doesn’t answer you. Could it be because you don’t know who He really is? The Bible teaches that God does not give us a spirit of fear. I had to ask myself, if God does not give me a spirit of fear, why am I having these acute panic attacks. I don’t have an answer for that question, but I do have faith that God is there, He cares for me, and He will teach me something important through this trial. I highly suggest finding a Bible and reading it, even if it does nothing more for you than distract you from your anxiety. I feel confident that my panic attacks will eventually go away and that I will be a stronger person when they do. I know that I am not capable of stopping my worry and anxiety, but God is. He is bigger than everything. All you have to do is cry out to Him and He will save you; you just have to know who He is first. Good Luck and God Bless (I really mean that!).
September 8, 2008 at 9:48 pm |
Thanks
September 11, 2008 at 2:08 pm |
I have been experiencing these terrible feelings of Anxiety/Panic Attacks for a while now. You know what I do when I start having these terrible feelings, I cry out to God and say I am standing at the light of God’s love, He has not given me a spirit of fear, tormenting fear does not come from our lord, we have a God that cares about our emotional well being, God please take away these terrible feelings from me, please give me your peace that passes all understanding to guard my brain and my heart, it is not in your will for us to lose control and be ruled by our emotions and feeling but by your truth. You know when we have panic attacks they seems soooo real that something is about to go wrong with us but you know what these are just feelings so that’s it, it is not the truth, it is not the reality, it is not the truth of God and his word, NOTHING happens ourside the will of God, and his will for us is not to live in these tormenting feelings. You know through my Anxiety God has gotten me closer to him than ever. Before I started having my Anxiety I very very rarely picked up the bible and read it, but now I am getting to know my loving father through his words and gradually he is teaching me to put my trust in him and to know that in he is working behind the scenes to shape and mold me into the person that he wants me to be. He is tearing away all thoughts that cause me to have anxiety, doubt, and fear. In his time I know that my Anxiety and panic attacks will go away and through this experience I might help other. I hope this helps… May God shine his face upon all of us and lay his healing hands us.
September 17, 2008 at 4:13 am |
Natasha, you sound just like me. Im so glad I found your post, its like reading about myself. Thank you, it made me have hope.
September 26, 2008 at 3:18 pm |
Thank you Hayley. May God heal all of us that are suffering from Anxiety/Panic attacks. I know that we will come out of this stronger.
September 26, 2008 at 5:09 pm |
This is why i started this blog… thanks for using it… thanks for reading it… thanks for encouraging each other…
October 2, 2008 at 6:21 pm |
Thank you for starting this blog…
October 21, 2008 at 12:51 pm |
Hello,
My panic attacks have just reappeared out of the blue and no triggers – so not i am a little jumpy because I don’t want it to flare up at work because I work with soldiers in the army. I am prettry much a quiet person so now I just pray to the Lord that he delivers me once again. I am asking him to place his hands on me and turn me in the direction that he wants me to go.
Yes, I am scared because this is a side of me that I never had to deal with before. I was a strong person and to have this chemical imbalance terrifies me. so all I ask is that you pray for me, and that I can make it just like the rest of the individuals have this disease. Thank God that is it not worst.
November 4, 2008 at 10:59 pm |
Hi Denise,
May God Continue to heal you and bring you through this, just know that it is just feelings and not the reality, even know we think that it might be. Every time you get these terrible feelings and thoughts, just pray to the lord that he may take away all thoughts that cause you to have fear, anxiety, and doubts. He promises that he has not given us a spirit of fear but of a sound mind, peace he gives us and not as the world gives. Just keep thinking that You are standing in the light of God’s love, he’s got you in the palm of his hands he will allow anything to happen to you outside of his will, and if all that happens to us is from God’s will he brings us out of it. His will for us is to prosper us and certainly not to harm us. May God cover us all with his love and peace.
November 21, 2008 at 5:38 am |
There is nothing wrong with being fearful sometimes, it’s in our nature. I’ve found that the best coarse of action when dealing with a panic attack or anxiety is to embrace the feelings and just ride it out. There’s really nothing you can do to stop it when you’re experiencing it, and being fearful only makes it worse.
In my opinion having Anxiety is not a curse and crying out to God for them to stop only confirms an inability to confront the inner demons causing the problems in the first place. What you should be crying out to God for is clarity. Clarity to understand what your body is responding to so violently. Perhaps you’re not living life the way you want to or know you should. Maybe you’re lying to yourself and others you love. Maybe you’re not taking care of your body. Whatever the case, I see it as an opportunity to change.
Nobody knows why good people suffer, perhaps it’s all part of a bigger picture. I believe that often times anxiety disorder is not necessarily the result of a chemical imbalance in the brain, but a result of physical or emotional trauma that we don’t even recognize. If you’re feeling anxious I encourage you to take a deep look at yourself and your decisions. See a counselor if you have to. Pray for clarity.
December 5, 2008 at 3:49 am |
what can i say god is a bit hard to believe im just 25 been watching Touched by an Angel can say its give me a bit of hope i have panic attacks feeling anxious and afraid all the time its hard to go on but what can you do just 1 of the 2 2s on my mind alot but day by day just see
December 5, 2008 at 3:57 am |
what can i say god is a bit hard to believe im just 25 been watching Touched by an Angel can say its give me a bit of hope i have panic attacks feeling anxious and afraid all the time its hard to go on but what can you do just 1 of the 2 2s on my mind alot but day by day just see
December 5, 2008 at 5:21 am |
hey john, thanks for the post and your honesty… it is tough believing in something you cant physically see, hear, touch, taste or smell… kind of like air…
Bottom line for me is this… If He is real and i dont even bother to try and find out then i lose out on far more than if He isnt real and i spend some time and effort to find out there isnt anything there.
Personally for me because of the strength, grace, love, wisdom and mercy i have received in hard times that i know i could have never mustered on my own, i know beyond a shadow of a doubt as to the reality of His existence and His concern for my life. If i could physically see Him, touch Him, hear Him it would not make me believe any more.
January 2, 2009 at 1:32 am |
was covered under my wife with health insurance I have none so they just keep covering the problem. I have faith and have cried out to god on many occasions. Heck a few nights ago i wanted to end it for good, but could not do that to my family. They don’t understand either I really feel as if I am out to do battle with myself. But what am i battling it has to be fear i guess. Last night i went out and once again my social skills and the fear took over met some really cool girl but she does not understand it is not her fault. Oh I just wish there was a way to get though this. I really don’t know how much more i can really take.
January 29, 2009 at 1:19 pm |
Anxiety is a mental problem and you should take medication from your doctor. Example If you need insulin everyday to live and stop taking it and pray to God for help,,,,, Guess what? you will Die. God help those who help themselfs
April 8, 2009 at 10:17 pm |
I understand, I really do. I had an A$$Wh0le of a boss ruin my life because of health issues at work. Lost my job, insurance, etc etc etc. I cannot stand to live anymore, when you are ill nobody cares, they just want your money bottom line! I have none and bills out the rear. I pray and pray and pray and no help ever happens, just more problems. I do not think I want to go on like this much longer, why? What the hell is it all for? A nice sleep forever looks mighty inviting anymore……….
June 8, 2009 at 9:09 pm |
I have recently started a new job and relocated out of state. I have been unemployed/underemployed for so long and this break finally came along. I am in training for a month in another state. We have short test every other day or so. I have failed 2 out 3 test so far. I have to pass 7 out 10 to graduate. Today, I had all the correct answers, paniced, went back and erased them, and failed. If some reads this today, please pray for me. If I continue to fail, I am out of a job. I wish all the rest here the best.